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Friday, April 30, 2004

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Sigh... We lost the finals to RI. no matter. we still managed to get father than we ever had before. now it's time for the sec3s to take over. well, it's all in god's plan... that we lost.
haha. going for dinner with my parents now.
oh yeah. someone remind me to kill kal for spreading rumors that i joined deb8 for jennifer. :X

[[ Sagacious Musings ]]*|11:48 PM|

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its quite late so i will restrict the length of this entry.
lots of work not done. and i do mean LOTS. POD chem essay physics quiz and so on and so forth.... sure am glad there's no more CCA...
tml or rather today is the debate finals.... against RI.
Let's go AC Deb8! wonder how ac barker did in the c division.... well we can always find out.
hmm. i think i can hand in my work late. haha. haven't done CASL either, and dun think i will have that much time to do tml... sigh... busy busy busy.
shall now slack with some com games. haha my priorities are WAYYYY screwed.... lol.

[[ Sagacious Musings ]]*|12:05 AM|

Wednesday, April 28, 2004

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grr. lots of anonymous flamers eh? don't think i don't know who you are. hey. let me tell you now, if u really want to bitch at me, do it with logical coherence and i dentify yourself, like ian, ok?
i'm quite sure all of you also got projects to do. so please, tdon't waste your time here.
disclaimer. just in case any of you haven't figured out yet, you insult me anonymously, i remove the tag, and i don't even read it. for my purposes, anynonymous flamers might just as well be one-legged prostitutes in timbuktoo or summat....
anyway, let it be known that i don't honestly give a shit what you think. i'm not here to please everyone. i'm sure you aren;t either.
hmm. still debating whether to go weights room or play basketball with nat on fri for PE.
we'll see,
on another separate note, i wish jonathan pflug could come back and coach debate. who better than the best speaker at world schools debate man....

[[ Sagacious Musings ]]*|11:22 PM|

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

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yo. there has been little activity as of late, but want to blog cause today was one large free period. in a sense that we dint learn a single thing (in general)
so we start off with geog, and we get our tests back, kudos to song and royston for getting full marks. so yvonne lim starts telling us about what went wrong with our qns, etc etc, but in classic yvonne lim style, we all switch off more or less by the third paragraph, either mulling over our marks or celebrating.
after that, we get core maths test, and i think i'm gonna get some shit like 12 or summat
so then we have compo test for chinese, which takes up 2 periods. not heavy duty-stuff, just some simple logic. ian cheong finished by first period tho. haha. guess he got a lot to say (as usual).
next was PE! haha roxorz.... played bball with mr lau and 3.10, as well as some other pple (sec1s, not sure gep or not), and won nat's team... yay. mr. lau really is quite good. haha. leter played with jerome, ivan, jonan and co, and got clocked on the jaw by ivan.... grr. it still hurts, and its stiff. no nougats for me for a while :P finally at recess, i played tim liew at ABC, and went all the way then came back, until song, ben chia and mun came out and we played a short game. deja vu? sounds like last week, no?
hmm. hope that mr. ho can let us into weights rm this fri. want to do weights! of course consequence is that my basketball is disabled for a while.... still ok
after that, we had NSW science, which was relatively ok. the stars thingy qn was quite weird, so i just tikum tikum it. haha.
after that, a maths, and gan not around! whooo! roxorz man.... ben chia, kal and co. went to rape mun (for the umpteenth time) and i settled down for a nice session of the masochistic slap hand game with royston.... whee. so fun. ended up my right palm and left back of hand were all red while my left palm and right back of hand were untouched.... haha.
surprise surprise, kevin koh comes in with marked test papers all in hand. that was fast.... :P or rather that was kevin koh. :P so we get our maths tests back, and i got some shit cause i was careless.... could have gotten 20, cause i knew how to do the qns.... well anyway i got 17, respectable enough.... and song, mun, and jason got full marks. kudos to them.
hmm. song must be feeling very good today :P wonder if i should remind him that he owes me 70? :P havent collected for a while, but if in desperate need of dough this week, then mayb....
haha so much shit due! must get extension for chem portfolio from pill... or else confirm die one. sigh. and somemore this week got gay thursday schedule, whole day and night taken up... :(
nvm then. got to do physics! joel khoo really makes a good group leader, though a little threatening sometimes.... lol.

[[ Sagacious Musings ]]*|4:48 PM|

Sunday, April 25, 2004

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gah! too many projects! i think i will be sleeping alte most of these days just trying to cope with everything. chem, chem portfolio, shakespeare, advertisement, chinese test, etc, etc, etc.....

Verse 1
You make me dizzy
Running circles in my head
One of these days I’ll chase you down
Well look who’s going crazy now
We’re face to face my friend
Better get out
Better get out

Chorus
You know you make me breakout
Make me breakout

I don’t wanna look like that
I don’t wanna look like that
Know you make me breakout

Verse 2
You can see this on my face
It’s all for you
The more and more I take I break right through
Therapy still scares me
Putting me on my back again
I may be crazy, little frayed around the ends
One of these days I’ll phase you out

Burn it in the blast off
Burn it in the blast off
Watch me crawl away
Try to get out
Try to get out

Chorus

Breakout!
Go, go, go

Chorus

i think i need some time away from all the pressure man...

[[ Sagacious Musings ]]*|7:18 PM|

Saturday, April 24, 2004

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hmm. shall post some random conversations i have heard over the last few days.
**this was heard today at LDP**
Ian Cheong: *something inaudible*
Niche: Who?
Ian: who else?
Niche: But if he whacks u, you'll die
Ian: I don't care!

hmm. well haha u noe what they were talking about, and what i think about that.

**this was heard yesterday**
BZ: *something inaudible*
Kia Hua: Shut up Bitch!
BZ: *something inaudible**
Kia Hua: *cuts bz off** Shut up bitch! if i wanted your opinion, i would have asked for it!
BZ: *something inaudible*

well. i don't need to tell you how that probably went down rite? haha. guess its true when BZ says that most of his frens are not in sec 3 gep....

that aside, today was LDP. but i'm sure u knew that already. was quite ok la, got to meet up with old friends, and talk some. other than that, i had fun yesterday at jason liu's house. haha his house is so nice... i want... he has an attic in his room, and so we were playing a keeping game that involves one guy throwing a soccer ball at the attic (well its a semi-attic, its like a second floor that hangs over his normal room space...) and the guy up in the attic trying to catch it with one hand. whee and in the end we ended up doing nothing for the project. hmm. kinda reminds me of that time when i did geog project with jason.... ah nvm. i think BZ is quite pissed with all of us now. lol.

anyway, i found a cool new band while searching for a "dead march" to accompany my king lear thingy. im also thinking perhaps King nothing by metallica would be appropriate for a pre-play segment. anyhows, the band is called nightwish and it roxorz! its heavy metal, of course (well i hardly listen to any other kind of secular music) and its vocalist ownz cause she can actually sing... and she has considerable power, pitch and control, especially when compared to most other heavy metallists....

[[ Sagacious Musings ]]*|8:51 PM|

Friday, April 23, 2004

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yo. wassup all. today is Elizabeth's birthday! so happy bdae to her...
today got back maths test and had chinese test. hmm. maths test was quite disappointing, not because of the mark (well if u knew our class average...) but because i had a careless mistake that cost me a whole 4 marks, which meant 10% of the marks in the test. sigh.
on a more uplifting part, chinese test was better... had a much better time, though timespan was a little uncomfortable to work with. doesn't matter. definitely shall be able to get better for this test than the previous 2 tests.
hmm. also found out that josh hoe's group had did some serious last minute work yesterday , and one of my friends had slept at 4 am. nasty stuff.... especially before exams.
ah well. kinda getting concerned for josh hoe... i mean he does all this last minute stuff and is involved with so many stuff all around. kinda sad he dint get to apply for DEP somemore... well shall pray for him.

hmm. yesterday's AMI was screwed VERY bad. well why the hell do u have the best 3 singers in the bottom 3? good thing latoya was still safe.... i feel that america is nuts. they never go on singing power, but instead on so many other nitty gritty unimportant factors like looks, etc. i mean come on. latoya and fantasia have the best singing capability and best personality respectively, and they still get into bottom 3?
america's racist la. they just can't bear the fact that all the best singers in AMI are blacks. (Huff, Hudson, London, Barrino)
so they decide to get rid of them
screw america. i think we know now why idiots like bush can be american president.

[[ Sagacious Musings ]]*|9:03 PM|

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

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hmm kinda busy now so shall keep it short.
wonder when you should speak your mind? i mean it dosn't really seem to work most of the time and people just get incesnsed more mand more. but the problem, what if they are wrong? shouldn't a friend try to correct them? anyway iat least i need to work on my tact, as i do not seem to have enough of it. sigh....
hmm. perhaps i can apply some debating skill here?
at any rate, need to improve my social skills. i dun seem to be myself often enough, and i seem to be very shy always areound people that i do not know enough.
anyway. BZ commented on dumping brandon into one of the four men groups, to which song turnbed around, looked pissed, and muttered "stupid coconut head". hmm. it seems that BZ isn't enderaing himslef to the rest of the class either. ah well. who am i to comment on what people say? but at the same time, i do realize that sometimes people do need to be corrected. i guess it would depend on the person's level of receptiveness.
well i'm receptive to advice and criticism. so do advise me if you shall.

[[ Sagacious Musings ]]*|8:31 PM|

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

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What happened to you
You played the victim for so long now in this game
What I thought was true
Is made of fiction and I’m following the same

But if I try to make sense of this mess I’m in
I’m not sure where I should begin
I’m fallin’
I’m fallin’

Now I’m in over my head
For something I said
Completely misread
I’m better off dead

And now I can see
I think it could be
This hypocrisy is beginning to get to me

It’s none of my concern
What is luck to me I don’t believe in fame
I guess you never heard
I bet the makers they don’t even know your name

But if I had to say goodbye to leave this hell
I think my time has served me well
I’m fallin’
I’m fallin’

[chorus]

This came all before
Those who suffer more
I’m too awake for this to be a nightmare

What’s with my disgrace
I lost the human race
No one left for this to blow up in you face

Who said it was so easy to put back all of these pieces
Who said it was so easy to put back all of these pieces

[chorus]

Over my head
Better off dead

Over my head
Better off dead

gah. one third of 2004 has come and gone. but yet nothing seems to be going my way.
but wait. why am i always talking bout me?
hmm.
got lots of rather obvious hints recently, but somehow dint realize them. but now i do
epiphany
i'm very thick-skinned. but the problem is, im also kinda screwed up
yeah well maybe i haven't realized it yet, but my EQ is very low.
like what those people say. even if your IQ is high, but your EQ is low, then you still amount to nothing.
well and in this case, i'm not even sure my IQ is high.
aside from that, why do i keep pestering people? i always pester good groups and ask to join them, whereas now i realize that good groups are only as good as their leader. and honestly, as a group leader, i've kinda failed.
1. i pester pple too much.
2. i'm obnoxious
3. i'm a control freak
4. i'm too ego.
5. i'm too thick (i.e. dumb)
6. i don't realize tact when i see it.

so yeah. who cares about my grades being high or what not? my EQ still sucks and i need to improve it, at advice of my friends. (shall not mention names). also found out that jeremy foo is a very nice person! he's gonna lend me his vid cam even tho 1. im not in his grp and 2. he might have to use it. what a nice guy... shall be a blast working with him on shakespeare.
once again mun (and the rest of the pre-IB as well) i would like to apologize for the ballot system. i know that you all don't like it and probably never will. so i'm not gonna start rationalizing here about why it's good or it's not.
it's in place, and i can't change that.
yeah. (reminds self to not be such a control freak)
why am i one? i always end up leading a group, telling pple what to do, and due to my low eq, generally end up bossing pple around. for once i would like to take a back seat to others and let them lead instead. getting tired of my own ineffective leadership.

*slaps self for not blogging*
*slaps self again for reasons stated above*

sigh... guess it'll take a long time to correct these faults of mine... so onwards i go.

[[ Sagacious Musings ]]*|8:26 PM|