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Friday, May 07, 2004

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i shall start and end with a song. don't mind me.

Bon Jovi - Say it isn't so

There's no Santa Claus
It was all a lie
No man in the moon
Just a big light in the sky
I hear Disneyland
Might lose Mickey Mouse
In some giant hostile corporate shake-up
Tell me it's a nightmare
Please wake me up
(Say it isn't so)

I found a book of matches
From someplace we've never been
How come you hang the phone up
The minute I walk in
Last night I had this dream
That I was losing you
I woke up in a cold sweat shaking

Rescue me my heart is breaking

Say it isn't so (tell me it's not true)
Say it isn't so (I believe in you)
Tell me it's a lie (I don't need no proof)
Say everything's alright (couldn't be, not you)
Say it isn't so

Superman don't fly
They did it all with strings
Elvis Presley died
They deep fried the king
Like some tacky cheesy bathing beauty
Dancing on the beach in a bad b-movie

Say it isn't so (tell me it's not true)
Say it isn't so (I believe in you)
Tell me it's a lie (I don't need no proof)
Say everything's alright (couldn't be, not you)

Say it isn't so (don't give up on me)
Say it isn't so (don't give up on you)
Get me through the night (we'll make it through)
Make everything alright (couldn't be, not you)
Say it isn't so..

Say it isn't so (tell me it's not true)
Say it isn't so (I believe in you)
Tell me it's a lie (I don't need no proof)
Say everything's alright (couldn't be, not you)

Say it isn't so (don't give up on me)
Say it isn't so (don't give up on you)
Get me through the night (we'll make it through)
Make everything alright (couldn't be, not you)
Say it isn't so.

sigh... this week has really been getting me down.
this week will go down in the short 3.9. annals as "sick week". not one day passed without someone falling sick and not coming to sch. forget who it was on mon. on tues it was bz (who remained sick the rest of the week) and poon, on wed it was ant, on thurs it was song, and today it was jed and feng.
hmm ian says that if he was in 3.9. he would have pmsed already. i agree. haha if he thot david ang was bad... well aside from that, ib is really starting to get to all of us. today we had 2 sonnet presentations and then the rest weren't ready, so we ended up composing a lame poem parody... sigh.
screw. my hols are split into 3 sections. from the start to debate camp, abt the first week, from the debate camp to church camp, then from church camp to spec course. worst is that after spec course, i have no time at all left.... so i must actually do my hol hw finish before the last week of the hols! *gasps in horror*
sigh.... sometimes i wish i had gone to 3.8. like royt said(i think) they may be screwed but they're having fun.... IB really gets you down after a while. so many things to do, so little time. i stilll owe loo 3 jian bao, and i ahvent done physics quiz one and 2... bleagh. la(b) is still due somemore, and we just found out that our chinese test has been pulled up to this coming thursday!!!!~!@#$%^&*(*#@#$%^&*
MAY I LOUDLY AND PROUDLY SAY. FUCK YOU GRACE KHOO. WHAT'S YOUR BLOODY PROBLEM! IF THERE'S SOME PROBLEM WITH THE ORIGINAL DATE THEN JUST TELL US LIKE BEFOREHAND....
loo claims that we don't study anyway. but that's just fucked. i was plannind to nicely spread one or two ke each day until week 9 friday.... but they had to bring it more than a week forward!!! now i gotta study 3 ke everyday!!! fuck fuck fuck....
and this coming time there's a a maths test. i suppose i will revise a little, but that's about it. how to do so much!
oh yeah. today's chem test is screwed too. me josh bryan colin karan and kevin got totally different answers for like q2 and q3... grr.
so. tests tests test, and projects and assignments somemore. lets see. aside from ISO (bad enough) we still have to hand in EOS!!!!! at the same time somemore....
where are our bloody holidays?
we don't want, we NEED the american school system. you want to get us with homework? then we can still do it in the first month. then we still got 2 months to slack away.
hey. we're the guinea pigs for singapore ib here. what the shit. didja know american IB has NO HOMEWORK??? ok sure they stay back in sch until like 5 but thay have absolutely no shit to do at home!!!
i tell u its a conspiracy. they make us all work like dogs so we won't have some form of uprising against the govt or summat.
gah. i want o levels. dun care if 3.8. pple are chao mugging now (well actually they're not.... most of them at least) cause they're much more relaxed on a daily basis.... would u rather have a trough of chao mug and a long peak or carefreeness or have a constant flatline of moderate to high tension the whole year round? plus i gotta say i prefer tests. lots of people will disagree on this point, but look. in a test, its all on your own merit. u screw yourself, or you own. at the end of the day its a personal effort. but look. in IB, coattail riders abound everywhere! they get stuck with hard working people just so they can slack off... well maybe not totally slack off but to a large extent... shan't name pple here tho.
so they say we need to work with people? sure. but we also need to know pple's strengths and weaknesses. look. there've been 3 lang arts projects already. but look! no chinese, no core math, no chemistry, no geography group projects? doesn't make sense. are you gonna get pple like jon seah screwed just because they aren't humanities pple?
its flawed. the whole system is flawed. i can tell you most of the IBers want to go back to O levels. well at least in 3.9.
well how bout we mass drop? hehe...
sigh. 9 subjects in this format is just too much. just too much. can we say that 6 subjects later on in IBDP is ok? i dunno. but i have a feeling that it's gonna be too much anyway.
regardless, we trudge on through the mud. the mud of IB.
and we can go 2 ways. we'll either drown or pull ourselves out of this mess, one way or another.

Linkin Park - Crawling

Crawling in my skin,
These wounds they will not heal,
Fear is how I fall,
Confusing what is real

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface,
Consuming, confusing,
This lack of self control I fear is never ending,
Controlling
I can't seem
To find myself again,
My walls are closing in,
(Without a sense of confidence,
I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before,
So insecure

Crawling in my skin,
These wounds they will not heal,
Fear is how I fall,
Confusing what is real,

Discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me,
Distracting, reacting,
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection,
It's haunting,
How I can't seem,
To find myself again,
My walls are closing in,
(Without a sense of confidence,
I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before,
So insecure...

Crawling in my skin,
These wounds they will not heal,
Fear is how I fall,
Confusing what is real...(2x)

May God Help Us All.
"and give us this day our daily bread..."

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