Mood - flippantly jubilant
Song - Everclear - Wonderful
i feel maligned at being demarcated as ostentatious for usage of grandiose repartee.
should it come to naught that bombastic vocabulary evanesce away? perharps it is time to think back, even as the mental ramifications of the days slide into immiscible fog, obfuscating our intellect and initiating a process of temerarious causality. with utmost severity must we then keep our minds lissome while avoiding the bane of irascibility that afflicts most of the populace of this locale.
whoop-de-doo. i just basically said about nothing there. one of the beauties of the english language is to be able to say so much yet mean so little. hardly would you be able to do that in any other language, ne?
just read our resident high-scorer's blog, and it does cause some food for thought.
this year.
what was this year? what was it to me?
perhaps a little hasty in reflecting so soon, you may ask? yet be that as it may, i feel tis never too soon for such things.
i suppose this year, and the end of last year, was really an eye-opener of sorts. i learnt many things that i supposed i should have already learnt by now, but it really helped me to see things as they really are. no philo discusssions here, i just finished my POD essay and i must say its rather tiresome... but nevertheless, even as teacher's day draws near, it seems that i must say something. naturally, after the recent misadventure, don't expect any specifics here.
it seems like i, along with a lot of others, rely heavily on the teacher to help them along the way. i know some people would rather just go back and study, and not bother in class, but i can't bring myself to do that. if there was something good to be garnered from a teacher, then why not? not all teachers are good anyway, so one might as well draw what one can from each of the good ones. of course some subjects don't rely so much on the teacher cause their textbook based, but lots of e humans do rely on e teachers. thankfully no problems with them this year.
yet overall, we come and go, and in the teacher's mind, we may be just another one of e students, or we may be stellar. even then, we leave the school, and we will in 3 years, afterall, do we really retain a close lasting relationship with the teacher? will the teacher really remember us for all we do? of course he or she would remember us if we came back, but will he or she still remember us otherwise? just some food for thought...
and on another note, teacher's day... is it really all that it's cracked up to be? i mean we take a day to be nice and remember the teachers of this world and their immeasurable addition to this world, yet after its over and done, we go back to our own small little spheres, and continue as always. i suppose here is where one would remember the particular person... by his daily actions. i heard somewhere, "remember, everything you do has a consequence". do we ever think enough about that? perhaps not enough.
maybe to some, POD is just another cracked up subject we get. yet to me it's been a real eye-opener, doing all the POD essays. look at our sphere of influence. its so small. perhaps we know, one, two hundred people, but how many of us will actually get the chance to change the world? will we be able to count for anything at all in this world?
with all that, it's easy to fall towards negativity. indeed small doesn't even begin to describe what we do. i suppose that's why we seek a higher purpose in life, a higher order, a higher being, God.
but at the end. does it all mean anything?
some food for thought... a passage from Kazuo Ishiguro's "Remains of the day"...
"Perhaps, then, there is something to his advice that i should cease looking back so much, that I should adopt a more positive outlook and try to make the best of what remains of what remains of my day. After all, what can we ever gain in forever looking back and blaming ourselves if our lives have not turned out quite as we might have wished? The hard reality is, surely, that for the likes of you and I, there is little choice other than to leave our fate, ultimately, in the hands of those great gentlement at the hub of this world who employ our services. What is the point in worrying oneself too much about what one could or could not have done to control the course one's life took? Surely it is enough that the likes of you and I at least try to make our small contribution count for something true and worthy. And if some of us are prepared to sacrifice much in life in order to pursue such aspirations, surely that is in itself, whatever the outcome, cause for pride and contentment." - Page 244
eh. how did i meander off in this direction? perhaps tis' not to think too much about that either.
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear.
23Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes.
24Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds!
25Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[2] ?
26Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?
27"Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these.
28If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith!
29And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it.
30For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. 31But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.
32"Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom.
33Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will not be exhausted, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys.
34For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."
- Luke 12 : 22-34
Mood - impassioned, slightly tenebrous
Song - R. Kelly - I Believe I Can Fly
goodies! mun has started blogging after a 4-5 month lull... anyway this weekend has been kinda wasted already... friday came back after debate then just did a bit of zuowen and watched tv mostly... went to sleep after that... then saturday i went NCC until bout 1, had lunch till 1.30, then took some shots. i think owning to some gastric discomfort caused by too much chilli at lunch, i took like 1 hour to complete 50 free-throws... also cause my ball was too bouncy and was flying alll over once it hit the rim... so after that i went to cool off, came back and found ethan and jerome so went to play with them and a BB erm.... senior. well they called him "sir" but i didn't ascertain what his post was so nvm... yea i came back and was q shack. so i slept e day and night away. blah. so that leaves me with today to do my HW.
on a positive (or negative, depending on how u look at it) not, haven't touched heavy metal for q a while now... suddenly have this craving for rap and all that. Cornell Hoynes Jr. anyone? haha...
ok i better get going now. time's a wasting yea? cya...
R. Kelly - I Believe I Can Fly
I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms
If I can see it, then I can be it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
[1] - I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
See I was on the verge of breaking down
Sometimes silence can seem so loud
There are miracles in life I must achieve
But first I know it starts inside of me, oh
If I can see it, then I can be it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
[Repeat 1]
Hey, cuz I believe in me, oh
If I can see it, then I can be it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
[Repeat 1]
Hey, if I just spread my wings
I can fly
I can fly
I can fly, hey
If I just spread my wings
I can fly
Fly-eye-eye
Mood - passive
Song - Sisqo - Thong Song
sigh... doing POD now.. its actually quite meaningful... haha... but kinda time consuming to read thru and understand everything, and its quite hard to understand somemore... blah...
oh well. not much time now. still need to do IHS by today. cya then.
Sisqo - Thong Song
This thing right here
Is lettin' all the ladies know
What guys talk about
You know, the finer things in life
a heh heh heh
Check it Out
Ooh that dress so scandalous
And you know another nigga can't handle it
So you shakin that thang like who's the ish
With a look in yer eyes so devilish
Uh
You like to dance on the hip hop spots
And you cruise to crews to connect the dots
Not just urban she like the pop
'Cause she was Livin' La Vida Loca
She had dumps like a truck, truck, truck
Thighs like what, what, what
Baby move your butt, butt, butt
I think i'll sing it again
She had dumps like a truck, truck, truck
Thighs like what, what, what
All night long
Let me see that thong
I like it when the beat goes
Duh dun duh
Baby make your booty go
Duh dun duh
Baby I know you wanna show
Duh dun duh
That thong thong thong thong thong
I like it when the beat goes
Duh dun duh
Baby make your booty go
Duh dun duh
Baby I know you wanna show
Duh dun duh
That thong thong thong thong thong
That girl so scandalous
And I know another nigga can't handle it
And she shakin' that thing like who's the ish
With a look in her eyes so devilish
She like to dance on the hip hop spots
And she cruise to the grooves to connect the dots
Not just urban she like the pop
Cause she was Livin La Vida Loca
She had dumps like a truck, truck, truck
Thighs like what, what, what
Baby move your butt, butt, butt
I think i'll sing it again
She had dumps like a truck, truck, truck
Thighs like what, what, what
All night long
Let me see that thong
I like it when the beat goes
Duh dun duh
Baby make your booty go
Duh dun duh
Baby I know you wanna show
Duh dun duh
That thong thong thong thong thong
I like it when the beat goes
Duh dun duh
Baby make your booty go
Duh dun duh
Baby I know you wanna show
Duh dun duh
That thong thong thong thong thong
I like it when the beat goes
Duh dun duh
Baby make your booty go
Duh dun duh
Baby I know you wanna show
Duh dun duh
That thong thong thong thong thong
I like it when the beat goes
Duh dun duh
Baby make your booty go
Duh dun duh
Baby I know you wanna show
Duh dun duh
That thong thong thong thong thong
That dress so scandalous
I swear another nigga couldn't handle it
When you shakin' that thing like whose the ish
With a look in your eyes do devilish
Uh
You like to dance on the hip hop spots
Then you cruise to the grooves to connect the dots
Not just urban you like the pop
Cause she was Livin La Vida Loca
She had dumps like a truck, truck, truck
Thighs like what, what, what
Baby move your butt, butt, butt, uh
I think i'll sing it again
'Cause she had dumps like a truck, truck, truck
Thighs like what, what, what
Baby move your butt, butt, butt, uh
I think i'll sing it again
C'mon
C'mon
C'mon
C'mon
I like it when the beat goes
Duh dun duh
Baby make your booty go
Duh dun duh
Baby I know you wanna show
Duh dun duh
That thong thong thong thong thong
I like it when the beat goes
Duh dun duh
Baby make your booty go
Duh dun duh
Baby I know you wanna show
Duh dun duh
That thong thong thong thong thong
I like it when the beat goes
Duh dun duh
Baby make your booty go
Duh dun duh
Baby I know you wanna show
Duh dun duh
That thong thong thong thong thong
I like it when the beat goes
Duh dun duh
Baby make your booty go
Duh dun duh
Baby I know you wanna show
Duh dun duh
That thong thong thong thong thong
I like it when the beat goes
Duh dun duh
Baby make your booty go
Duh dun duh
Baby I know you wanna show
Duh dun duh
That thong thong thong thong thong
Duh dun duh
Duh dun duh
Duh dun duh
Thong, thong, thong, thong, thong
Duh dun duh
Duh dun duh
Duh dun duh
Thong, thong, thong, thong, thong
I like it when the beat goes
Duh dun duh
Baby make your booty go
Duh dun duh
Baby I know you wanna show
Duh dun duh
That thong thong thong thong thong
I like it when the beat goes
Duh dun duh
Baby make your booty go
Duh dun duh
Baby I know you wanna show
Duh dun duh
That thong thong thong thong thong
I like it when the beat goes
Duh dun duh
Baby make your booty go
Duh dun duh
Baby I know you wanna show
Duh dun duh
That thong thong thong thong thong
so tired! been busy the past few days with by bro's wedding which was yesterday... it was quite tiring la. but overall it was still fun.
started off around nine in the morn with me and my bro sending a mers off to capitol building to get it decorated for e wedding car. must say the decos are pretty solid... and the woman who did it was q pro! twisting and tying with great skill... oh well shu nen shen qiao i suppose... oh yea and the mers e240 is damn cool... its like super professional and has all this pwnage stuff...
anyway then drove the car to e hotel. woah. pan pac owns all hotels i've ever stayed in before man. i mean there's some major amount of nice marble tiling, glass, smooth wood, and so on... its really the lap of luxury... and the service is really ownz... apparently the 33rd and 34th floor have this butler who knows all the guests by name and face... and he serves them free food from this pacific lounge which is open 24 hours a day... oh yea and the rooms all have bath salts and all that gg stuff... i must say i would definitely love to stay in Pan pac sometime...
after that was the actual wedding ceremony. quote of the day comes from pastor tom chandler... cause like my bro's a doc and so is his wife... so according to pastor chandler, their a "paradox"... gg lameness... especially from a pastor...anyway the ceremony itself was pretty good... yea after that there was reception with these ownage plates... they have holes in them built for putting ur cups and cutlery... and its all synchronized... so u hold ur cup, food and cutlery all in 1 plate... must say that's some interesting effieciency, though it does come at the expense of the amount of food you can put on ur plate.. something always very impt to me...
yea then it was the tea ceremony time. argh i missed the first one running errands for my bro. apparently best man equates errand man. haha. the second one was q good, and all that... but yea. fell aslp then cause i was already q tired.
but later on we had dinner. it was q fun... though for a 10 course dinner i was quite unfulfilled... not that it mattered cause i tried 9 kinds of drink! and i think that was like nearly all of it...
lets see. that would be coke, sprite, tonic water, ginger ale, mirinda orange, shandy, beer, red wine and white wine... must say white wine owns... tho i think i got a little dizzy after all that stuff.... darn i think my tolerance must have gone down after a long dry spell after thailand.... not that it matters. yea so by the time the dinner ended it was like 12 already! after that we had to help my bro pack up, and all that... so i ended up getting back at 1 am... therefore today we all decided to go 2nd service and wake up late.... good since i felt more refereshed after waking up at 10... though i heard that the first service had screwed up projection cause i wasn't there... blah... well at least they now know its not that easy to do all of that stuff...
anyway. today's service was somehow better than usual. i don't know, sometimes i feel that going to church is a kind of routine, but today i felt as if god was trying to speak to me, either by the songs or by the message....
yea and the message today was good. it was like "what friends can do" on the bulletin, so i thought it might be about how to be a good neighbour and all that, but it turned out that Rev Shen preached on how jesus was our friend. yea that's quite some food for thought... he forgave our sins by shedding his blood... what other friend would do that? and the key line was that, when we walk around with our friends and run into some pple whom our friends are not acquainted with, we introduce our friends to each other.... so if you walk into some of your friends who do not know jesus, wouldn't you introduce this very special friend of yours? that really got me thinking... i suppose we go along, have fun, and so on, but we neglect the real fact, that if we don't act fast, some of our friends will face a christless eternity... and how we act affects how they perceive us...
yea. i suppose its time to be more loving and all. times pass fast, things go by, but the LORD remains unchanged and eternal. I'd like to close with this meaningful song.
People to people
How do you share the love of Jesus with a lonely man.
How do you tell a hungry man about the bread of life.
How do you tell a thirsty man about the living water of the Lord.
How do you tell him of His word.
Chorus:
People who know go to people who need to know Jesus
People who love go to people alone without Jesus
For there are people who need to see, people who need to love,
People who need to know God's redeeming love.
People who see go to those who are blind without Jesus
And this is People to People, yes, People to People all sharing
Together God's love.
How do you tell a dying man about eternal life.
How do you tell an orphan child about the Father's love.
How do you tell a man who's poor about the wondrous riches of the Lord.
How do you tell him of His word.
Chorus:
People who know go to people who need to know Jesus
People who love go to people alone without Jesus
For there are people who need to see, people who need to love,
People who need to know God's redeeming love.
People who see go to those who are blind without Jesus
And this is People to People, yes, People to People all sharing
Together God's love.
How do you tell a loveless world that God himself is love.
How do you tell a man who's down to lift his eyes above.
How do you tell a bleeding man about the healing power of the Lord.
How do you tell him of His word.
Chorus:
People who know go to people who need to know Jesus
People who love go to people alone without Jesus
For there are people who need to see, people who need to love,
People who need to know God's redeeming love.
People who see go to those who are blind without Jesus
And this is People to People, yes, People to People all sharing
Together God's love.
Mood - Dissatisfied and Disillusioned
Song - Metallica - Master of Puppets
its 1 am in the morning, and i am slogging away at my EoS first draft, which to my knowledge, few have completed except jason liu who did it by slacking off our a maths proj. humph. just fyi, jason, mun did do work cause he programmed the webby. so there.
this is the work that does not end, oh it goes on and on my friend.
some people, started doing it not knowing what it was,
and they'll continue doing it forever just because....
how much work can they give us? seriously being flooded to the brim... and i got my bro's wedding to do somemore.... blah. hope wes still goes to watch avp tml... shall be looking forward to that yea...
oh well. thankz to all who made me feel a little better. i guess things will blow over yea? like my tchr said, no one is perfect except god, we all make mistakes, the important thing is to learn from them and not commit them again...
yupz well i better be going. in other news i now have a firm belief that the best rock and metal songs exist back in the 80s.... and also that metallica has seriously gone down the drain... i mean i like st. anger (the song) and all but i think most of the album is q crap... and the style is just so not metallica. and i am also of the opinion that Master of Puppets (the song) is the best song that metallica has ever produced.... damn its technically and melodically beautiful... so yea.
Metallica - Master of Puppets
End of passion play, crumbling away
I’m your source of self-destruction
Veins that pump with fear, sucking darkest clear
Leading on your deaths construction
[chorus:]
Taste me you will see
More is all you need
You’re dedicated to
How I’m killing you
Come crawling faster
Obey your master
Your life burns faster
Obey your master
Master
Master of puppets I’m pulling your strings
Twisting your mind and smashing your dreams
Blinded by me, you can’t see a thing
Just call my name, `cause I’ll hear you scream
Master
Master
Just call my name, `cause I’ll hear you scream
Master
Master
[end chorus]
Needlework the way, never you betray
Life of death becoming clearer
Pain monopoly, ritual misery
Chop your breakfast on a mirror
[chorus]
Master, master, where’s the dreams that I’ve been after?
Master, master, you promised only lies
Laughter, laughter, all I hear and see is laughter
Laughter, laughter, laughing at my cries
Hell is worth all that, natural habitat
Just a rhyme without a reason
Neverending maze, drift on numbered days
Now your life is out of season
[chorus]
[fade out with evil laughter].
is nothing private anymore?
seems like not everyone understands or knows about unspoken rules.
if i can't even say what i want here, then where?
it seems there's no freedom of speech in this world anymore.
so let us mourn for the death of expression.
let us mourn for the sorry state of humanity.
let us mourn for our lost souls.
let us mourn for the destruction of childhood.
let us mourn for the killing of fun.
let us mourn for the automatons we have become.
let us mourn for the exodus of integrity.
let us mourn for the sordid state of the world.
let us mourn for the degeneration of life.
and,
let us mourn for the grave that we have dug for ourselves.
Lo, the end cometh.
"When the thousand years are over, Satan will be released from his prison and will go out to deceive the nations in the four corners of the earth--Gog and Magog--to gather them for battle. In number they are like the sand on the seashore. They marched across the breadth of the earth and surrounded the camp of God's people, the city he loves. But fire came down from heaven and devoured them. And the devil, who deceived them, was thrown into the lake of burning sulfur, where the beast and the false prophet had been thrown. They will be tormented day and night for ever and ever."
Revelation 20:7-10
haha. ate my lunch at like 3 and did not eat dinner. currently drinking absolut mandarin mixed with 7-up tropical, and must say that it is extremely good.... made it myself. haha.
ok well i think i better get down to constructive procrastination. what's there to do for a maths? can't find nuts for game theory on reversi....
blah. there goes 20% of e year's marks for a maths. not that i cared about a maths in the first place anyway. hahaha.
so i think i better go do my EoS or sumthin.... bah the work is piling like crap man....
upwards and onwards i go.
P.S. if u don't know what absolut mandarin is, feel free to msg me on msn.
Christina Aguilera - Beautiful
Don't look at me
Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the fame, I'm so ashamed
I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today
To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone and the puzzle undone
That's the way it is
You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words won't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words won't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today...
No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what they say
(no matter what they say)
When the sun is shining through
Then the clouds won't stay
And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The sun won't always shine
(sun won't always shine)
But tomorrow will find a way
All the other times
We are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down
We are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today
have i lost myself?
i don't know.
someone said this today. "oh he's just pissed cause he didn't top the class."
perhaps i would like to rationalize that.
perhaps i would want to explain it away.
but then again, perhaps its true.
i'm obsessed. obsessed with grades, marks, acad stuff.
have i really changed from the bad old days of sec 2 where i went around parading my intelligence? maybe not.
but if you think about it, is it all really worth it? someday we're gonna grow up, as scary as it might sound, and we're gonna have to deal with the harsh realities of life.
and lets face it. working real hard or being real intelligent isn't gonna get u that far.
as i see it, its a combination of who you know, as well as the 2 factors up there. time and place play a very important factor too.
so is it really all that?
i aspire to be a doctor. yet i don't see myself as some super specialist, or at least not the kind loo had to pay 3k for 20 mins of consultation. but not a GP either.
that all being said and done, i don't actually see myself in a supremely high position in life. i mean i 'm comfortable staying right where i am, somewhere decent.
i guess i brought it all on myself. if merv daos my email i won't mind. it's not that justified at any rate.
perhaps if i really sit down and start thinking, i would see my life and how shallow it really is.
i go around, do stuff with friends, and all that, but does it really mean anything inside? i can't really feel so. somehow i keep feeling that all my friends are accomodating me, that somehow they act.... different? when i'm around. i don't really know lar. it just seems to be that way.
one thing seems sure to me, and that is i'm not doing enough that will count for eternity.
so what have you done with your life?
i haven't accomplished much with mine.
all those awards, those grades, those studies, somehow i cling to them. to knowledge. cause i don't have enough beneath it. nothing. nothing but a hollow core carved out in a small little niche of the class.
if i disappeared today, would anybody miss me?
would i be ready to meet my maker?
would i be able to say i have no regrets?
would i leave behind unfinished business?
would i be able to say "i've lived my life to the fullest" ?
would god say "welcome, my good and faithful servant?"
i don't think so. there's not enough left in this shell, to compose anything worthy to show.
so what have you done today?
Skillet - Imperfection
You're worth so much
It'll never be enough
To see what you have to give
How beautiful you are
Yet seem so far from everything
You're wanting to be
You're wanting to be
Tears falling down again
Tears falling down
You fall to your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour your heart
In every hour, you're drowning
In your imperfection
You mean so much
That heaven would touch
The face of humankind for you
How special you are
Revel in your day
You're fearfully and wonderfully made
You're wonderfully made
Tears falling down again
Come let the healing begin
You fall to your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour your heart
In every hour, you're drowning
In your imperfection
You're worth so much
So easily crushed
Wanna be like everyone else
No one escapes
Every breath we take
Dealing with our own skeletons, skeletons
You fall to your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour your heart
In every hour, you're drowning
In your imperfection
Won't you believe, yeah
Won't you believe, yeah
All the things I see in you
You're not the only one
You're not the only one
Drowning in imperfection
haha. the prev posting was a little uncalled for.
sorry pple, was just ranting. i guess that's how i am.
yea i will try to change ok, josh, so thx for e advice too.
mm. so i deleted the prev post on advice of a few frens.
thx for calming me down pple... owe u a lot.
yawn... real bored! need a new com man....
spent the whole day till now on hardwarezone.com. seriously.
blah blah.... guess i better go back to my ERP
at any rate, the fruits of today's research:
Dream Com
Cost ($)
Motherboard + Processor
MSI (Microstar) KT8 Neo-FIS2R (VIA K8T800) Mainboard + AMD Athlon64 3200+ CPU
765
Graphics
GIGABYTE GV-RX80T256V (Radeon X800 XT ) 256MB GDDR3
999
RAM
CORSAIR 1pair/2pcs 512MB (TwinX1024-3200LLPT) PC-3200/400MHz DDR SDRAM
649
Hard Disk
Hitachi (HGST) Ultrastar 15K73 73GB (HUS157373EL3*00) 15K rpm UltraSCSI 320
1099
Monitor
PHILIPS Brilliance 200P3M 20.1" LCD (PinP+DVI/Analog/Speakers)
1999
Speaker
CREATIVE Inspire T7700 (7.1pt) system
249
Input Devices
LOGITECH MX900 Bluetooth Optical Mouse
145 MICROSOFT Natural Multimedia Keyboard (White+Blue)
75
Disk Drives
PLEXTOR PX-708A 8x4x Dual Format (Internal/Box) DVD±RW Writer
475 GIGABYTE 16x DVD-ROM Drive (48x read)
55
Sound Card
CREATIVE SoundBlaster Audigy2 ZS (7.1ch/24-bit) Platinum Pro =Retail Box=
355
Total
5766
whee. so fun right? now at least i know how much a com can really cost :P
tis the morning of our ac holiday and i'm already bored. fragged ultimecia and omega weapon already without breaking a sweat thanks to my 100 heros modified from laguna's card... lalala so i'm done playing ff8, my comp is seriously q fragged and so i can't be bothered to install or play other games cause their either not good enough for me or too good for my comp so yea... need to persuade pops to get a new comp! or at least upgrade some sth.... lets see.
Motherboard - not too particular, but it still has to be upgraded to accomodate more sth
Processor - not that big of a requirement? 2.4 ghz upwards should be fine...
RAM - got 512 already, so its ok... won't need upgrading i think
CDROM - i think my 52x is kinda screwed now, could get it replaced... alternatively just get a 48/24/48 cd writer to cover both aspects.... or summat... possibly a dvd writer and a cd writer? dvd writers aren't that ex now, only bout 200...
floppy - i stopped using zip a while ago. our 3.5 is still ok.
graphics card - major upg req. geforce 2 32 Mb cuts it nowhere! geforce 4 MX or radeon 9500 ++ should be good.... 128 Mb...
monitor - upg. recently. no need.
HardDisk - 80 GB absolute necessity for all my crap vids and all that... right now my comp is still majorly lacking in space....
speakers - our altec lansings are getting a little scratchy.... need to be upg also. subwoofer? prob give it a miss.
printer/scanner - also recently upg. will leave them be.
software - hmm XP is not really a requirement.... think should leave it be.
otherwise, its all good. shouldn't have much of a problem then.
except of course, my father's $$$. lol.
hmm. kinda bored now. i think i will go hardwarezone.com to go resarch on prices to get a gd deal.
ta ta!
i want my mom to read this. at least this post if nothing else. really.
so i went to tuition today even though im not supposed to cause i already went on thursday.
so i didn't tell her about the chinese test.
so i sit in front of the com for hours on end.
so i went tuition today cause i wanted to skip going to my grandfather's grave to pay him respects.
so i missed out on a ten course lunch.
so i'm a cruel piece of crap.
so i'm cynical.
so maybe i can't stand my mom.
so maybe i'm really bad at home.
so maybe i never listen to my parents.
so maybe i listen to, and like, marilyn manson, rammstein, rob zombie and other satanic shit.
so maybe u can't understand the likes of the rock and pop that i listen to.
so maybe i won't pay respects to you when you're dead.
so maybe i subscribe to "ren bu wei zi, tian zhu di mie" (for clarity, it translates loosely to "if man does not look out for himself, heaven and earth will be destroyed")
so maybe i never help out at home.
so maybe i can't give 2 shits about my homework.
so maybe i spend too much time on msn.
so maybe i'm violent.
so maybe i'm too emotionally attached to certain things/people.
so maybe i'm a lazy bum.
so maybe i won't keep my contract and give my parents 25% of my salary in future.
so maybe i detest my parents.
so maybe i'm elitist.
so maybe i won't even care if my mom dies.
so maybe i lie all the time.
so maybe i'm dishonest.
so maybe i cheat.
so maybe i pirate stuff off kazaa.
so maybe i never pay attention to the sermon in church.
so maybe i think church is a bore.
so maybe i've got the biggest ego this side of singapore.
so maybe i'm ungrateful.
so maybe i never talk to my parents.
so.
what.
do.
i.
look.
like.
i.
fucking.
care?
no.
N-O.
so.
to.
everyone.
out.
there.
go.
away.
seriously.
try.
this.
on.
for.
size.
Coal Chamber - Something Told Me
Some thing told me to tell you
Not to tell me what you do
I am what I fuckin' am
Many have tried to change this man
Life's always been an uphill fight
Some things I do you may not like
Life's always bee an uphill fight
Some thing I do you may like
Something told me to tell you
Don't give it to me
Something told me to tell you
Don't give it to me
Why do you do the shit that you do?
I'm doing just what I do
No, not what I want to do
But what I've got to to do we're through
Life's always been an uphill fight
Something I do you may not like
Life's always been an uphill fight
Something I do you may not like
Something told me to tell you
Don't give it to me
Something told me to tell you
Don't give it to me
Some thing told me to tell you
Not to tell me what you do
I am what I fuckin' am
Many have tried to change this man
Life's always been an uphill fight
Some things I do you may not like
Life's always bee an uphill fight
Some thing I do you may like
Something told me to tell you
Don't give it to me
Something told me to tell you
Don't give it to me
I'm sick of this shit
I'm sick of this shit
I'm sick of this shit, motherfucker!
I'm sick of this shit
I'm sick of this shit
I'm sick of this shit
I'm out of my mind and you're driving me crazy
Don't give it to me
Don't give it to me
Don't give it to me
Don't give it to me
It's not the same, it's not same
some things are not that same anymore
Something told me to tell you
Don't give it to me
Something told me to tell you
Don't give it to me
haha yesterday's barbeque was very fun!!! we went over to felicia's place for one long day of fun :P well we started by bullying mun :P haha we called loo shek kian and tan see keng on his phone lol... anyway we were being extremely laaame yesterday... courtesy of shiv and me... so yea i think we infected the place haha... anyway we started off kinda early... cause we were the first there... lol... but anyway, we went out to go rent some vids... or at least the girls did... i looked at all the titles and realized that all of them were old enough to be downloaded on kazaa... even the newest releases that cost 5 bux for 1 nite rental... lol.... at any reate, we went ramen ramen for lunch... and their spicy ramen was surprisingly good... anyway, thx to mun for treating us to lunch... apparently the bill went into something like 55 bux.... q nasty yea.. so we basically slacked off the whole afternoon watching tv, playing cards and laming around the bbq pit... heheh the incident of the butter and the recurring decimals... guess cynthia wanted to "butter up" eh? :P anyway, i gotta get my blue tonge pic from her... tho not really sure how haha.... oh yea, must also get my rather obscene pics from mun and song... ok u didn't hear that... haha anyway the bbq itself was q fun, i ended up eating a lot (tho it didn't feel like a lot cause it was all meat) but i didn't touch the prawn... apparently according to christine the prawn was v good... *coughs* but anyway, most of the evening was spent in between the actual bbq, pool-dunking cynthia and then chasing after malcolm... lol... yea see what RI does to you man... the RI pple were being massively hypersocial or summat... yea. anyway we ended up playing trouth or dare after a while, and the lamest thing was that all of it revolved around mun... at least for the time we were there. sigh. must say the rest of the pple lack shakspearean knowledge, judging from the lack of laughter at the lame joke shiv cracked about the flower... "when u put the flower on the table, you flower the table, so when u remove the flower, you....?" hahahaha... ok nvm... yea and auggie is confirmed parrotnoid... he was terrified :P hahahaha....
so yea! had a great time yesterday.
today wasn't half bad either. went to wesley's plcae to play doom 3 for a while, must say that the whole thing is pretty cool, though there is one helluva lot of backstabbing... ok that was lame, HELLuva... but nvm. only if u know the game then u understand that joke. regardless, i played on lowest difficulty setting and must say graphics and all are pretty decent... sad that i couldn't play it for a longer time...
ok i guess that's about it yea? cya soon...
JON BON JOVI - Always Lyrics This romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up
It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up
Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me
And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always
Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man
When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time
Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you
Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines
And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always
Name: Benjamin Soh
Birthday: 11/02/1989
Nicks: BS
School: ACS(I)
Contact(msn): ben.soh@gmail.com
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Drinks: All carbonated ones, DOM, Absolut, Johnny Walker
Pastimes: Chatting, Basketball, Reading
People: Friendly, Talkative, Intellectual
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Things: Not being appreciated, Obscurity
Food: Coriander
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