[[*---Virtu contro al Furore---*]]

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

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Things are back to normal. Thanks to all who helped me pull through...
I suppose in this case it was quite unusual because it was a problem that in a sense existed for the longest time, as well as a problem that existed within my own mind exclusively (sorry been doing too much doublethink recently - see George Orwell's 1984 for what that means), and therefore in this case it was not so much finding a solution to the problem, but to see how the individual, myself in this case could in a sense work my way across this problem, to get around it, and in the same line of though while avoiding it also integrating the problem to a certain extent that it no longer became problematic.
Also this would be the case because no existential solution to the problem is foreseeable - this problem is at once the fault of the individual for keeping things the way they are, and at the same time a fault of the whole circle of people from different schools in a sense pressurizing others into becoming that way... But before we become more incoherent and start debating on social oppression and the extent to which it affects the individual, let's just say that this problem both exists within the individual and society, and yet at the same time doesn't exist - in the sense that it only exists if a person such as myself should choose to recognize the issue and make a problem out of it. Simply put, if one chooses to be totally oblivious to this problem, then the problem in a sense will simply not exist.
So recognizing that no foreseeable solution exists to solve, in a sense, this problem, then i suppose that what i went out to do, was not to solve the problem, but instead to better understand the underlying issues within the problem, and to see how this problem, or issue if in that sense it wasn't universally recognized as a problem, to see how it worked, and what i could posssibly do to both integrate and avoid this issue.
Yup. That was extremely incoherent. I suppose even to those who do know what i'm talking about. Well now that the issue is in a sense resolved, or at least i see it resolved, then thanks are most certainly due to those who helped me along.

Thanks especially to...
Cyn, for making me see the problem in the first place. Like you said, just forget it, and i suppose that is true. All in the personal judgement isn't it?
Gel, for helping me understand the overarching issue better.
Josh, for being a great friend, understanding where i'm coming from, and putting the whole issue into context for me. God most certainly works many great and wondrous things through you... Thanks for being there always.
Christine, for understanding and empathizing with my position... I suppose seriousness is not na curse but a blessing, especially in times of trouble... Thanks and keep up the drug dealing :P
Feli, for showing me the "other" perspective, and helping me along with my self-awareness.... and also for telling me some things that i didn't yet know... Thanks...
Kal, for being perfectly honest, and for helping to close up and heal some old wounds that were yet to fully close.... haha glad things are better between us now...
And to everyone else who helped me along. Thank you all. You've been a great help.

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