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Tuesday, January 04, 2005

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Confusion

Perhaps those who say ignorance is bliss are the ones whom are right. So we laugh at them, and think them to be fools, but perhaps it is us who are the fools.
And yet, my own personal experience both supports and contradicts this. So where do I stand?
And yet, other's ignorance may increase our own suffering. Careless words, in the wrong context, in the wrong situation, tear gaping holes in our hearts. We seal them over, but eventually we see still an ugly keloid - a scar, a reminder that what was sundered can never really be reprised fully.
Loose Lips Sink Ships, indeed. And in this case the ship is not a tangible material thing, but an ethereal thing, something we call our heart, our soul.
Sometimes that ship breaks upon the rocks. And spiral into a descent of madness. Sometimes that ship rams an iceberg, and drowns in the bowels of the deep. And we shuffle off this plane, of our own accord.
But sometimes. We become like the Titanic, but we do not sink. A festering gash ripped in our sides, which we seal off, and all seems well again. Yet that wound is ever dripping, seeping our emotional blood away. Where do we go at the end? Into a cold and lifeless shell.
Stuck at a crossroads again. Do i assume the best, try to impose self-willed ignorance upon myself and think nothing of it? Or do i push the matter, perhaps reopening old scars, in search of the truth?
Perhaps i contradict myself, but is the truth really so good? Will it really set you free? That i question.

"Make your choice, adventurous Stranger;
Strike the bell and bide the danger,
Or wonder, till it drives you mad,
What would have followed if you had."
-- Inscription on a golden bell, from The Magician's Nephew by C.S. Lewis

Perhaps i will go mad sometime. Someday. But for now, I take my choice, and step away.

I have made my choice, wondrous bell.
Perhaps my mind shall become hell.
But firm I stand, so tarry thee;
Let not the bell toll for me.

[[ Sagacious Musings ]]*|11:31 PM|

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