Weathered
Drying up, burning out. Where has all enthusiasm, all my energy, gone to?
Had prep for SRJCs today. And yes, i should be excited because i'm going to my first competition. However minor. But then again, i'm not going to the JGs, unless i go plead with Joan or something. And yes, that's exactly what i should be doing now. Yet, somehow, i'm not. The passion is sorely lacking. The alacrity and the conviction has seeped away.
Well shoot me, cause i just asked.
But, even then, my performance tomorrow counts a good deal.
Am I being too selfish? Perhaps.
Am I being unconscious of my blessings? Definitely.
Too many pressures, too many results that matter.
A never-ending menagerie of pressures, that siphons the fun and the laughter from even those times where i try to relax and get away from it all.
Interestingly, i realized, last night, the reason why i never seemed to click with my class people that well. Because i'm emotionally unstable, and yet for the sake of public appearances, hide it all away, and never explode in front of people that matter to me.
Perhaps, that will come back to haunt me one day, this non-confrontational attitude.
Perhaps.
Sometimes I feel like... giving up.
Name: Benjamin Soh
Birthday: 11/02/1989
Nicks: BS
School: ACS(I)
Contact(msn): ben.soh@gmail.com
[[ My Likes ]]
Food: Meats, preferably in large quantities
Drinks: All carbonated ones, DOM, Absolut, Johnny Walker
Pastimes: Chatting, Basketball, Reading
People: Friendly, Talkative, Intellectual
[[ My Detests ]]
People: Backstabbers, Bimbos, Bitches
Things: Not being appreciated, Obscurity
Food: Coriander
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Probot - My Tortured Soul
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